Trusting can cause severe damage, it has always been like that. There is not a trick, there are no rules.
There are moment during a relationship where you are tested, these moments shall look very different. It can be from a birthday to a fight or a funeral. It can even be a little message. The other one always will expect something. Not just something but one specific answer. In my case my 'test' is sending 'i love you' and i expect no less. Then the absence of answer means that you don't until you reply. An answer containing something other than the frase means you don't.
I get paranoic in a second.
I am sick i think. Sad.
I can no longer hide my true nature, i am alone. Alone inside my own cage, all i am and all i can do is drift through this land as a ghost, a spectrum of nothingness. It doesn't matters what i do, no one will ever love me true. Not the way i love. No one will ever follow me into my journey.
After all, the drifters can only drift on their own.
