Wrongness, missconceptions and hopes

       "I am tired, i have been good enough for such a long time now and no one has ever even tryed to be nice with me"

I could say that i think i have all the right to say it. But what good could it be ? After all i have been not good but rather stupid, an idiot who thought that everything was settled, that everything was just fine as long as i could resist. Guess what ? There is a tiny switch in my head, it's not your average ON/OFF one. 

It's the emotion trigger switch, it's actually amazing because it can 'set' emotions like love, hate, etc... and stack the actuall emotion. That switch does jump! It frees the stack of feelings all together in the main pool of thoughts ! Imagine poisoning all and every thought with hatred and rage! imagine death all over your mind.

After those incidents however, every thought is purged. 

Quite a nice device.

Defeat of the loosers

        Hello my great followers. This entry is about defeat ! Not the semantic meaning of the word but about the moment it happens. About the feeling of utter desperation of having it in front of you, the moment you know there is no turning back but you are so close. So very close. 

        It happen to me just yesterday. My team and i were in a contest (witch name and purpose is irrelevant for the entry), there were just four teams. Including us. We started quite fine, unprepared but fine. Minutes went by, we could not solve a single problem but we knew how to do them, it was just the judge kicking our solutions. 

      Minutes went by.